Wow..what a way to start a blog...

Posted Friday, June 19, 2009 11:30 PM

Well to be completely trueful.. its 11:30 at night...im on my last night of vacation and ive had a few cocktails here and there since about 8... o well.. So I will start off by writing a HUGE blog telling all of you (or the many few who might actually ever even look at it..Lol) my story.. Well first off...my name is Amber.. as you can tell by my user name.. i am a fairly laid back- go with the flow- type of lady from the great state of Tennessee. I am 20 years old(which will change in Sept.) and also a full time college student. But i like to think i am very different from the average college student. Yes, i do drink and have a good time while enjoying the college life. Although while going to school and taking at least 16 hours of course credits of college every semester i also work two jobs, live on my own while not only paying for my own apartment expenses but also a car payment and paying for my school...without finacial aid..unfortunetly both my parents make way too much for me to EVER get any help paying for my school through the government but i do not think it is my parents responsibility to pay for my college...or at least not all of it.. now granted if i went to them and asked for their help they would give it to me without a word. I also like to think i am more mature than most of the people my age. I am only 20 years old and when i turn 21 i will already be a college junior......Now enough about me, i get to talk about my wonderful boyfriend... Drew. He is a few months younger than me but is also very mature for his age. We first got introtuced to one another through his friend Jd.. now normally most people would put here that his friend Jd was trying to get us together...definately not the situation here.. Lol actually at the time Jd had a crush on me while having a math class together that semester.. well unfortunately for Jd he was not my type at all. But as i was hanging around Jd i got to know Drew more and more. until finally one night while having a movie night in Drew's dorm (Which involved Drew, Me, Jd, Drew's roommate Evan, and whatever girl Evan decided to bring) i decided that night to sit next to Drew. For about 2 weeks Drew and I would hang out but other people would always be involved.. then finally one night while Jd was at work we decided to hang out together...alone. We watched tv and made jokes with me sitting in the middle of the room and he sitting on his bed(he lived in the dorm so there was only one chair Lol) then he had picked up his phone to check an email his dad had just sent him.. it was the perfect opportunity so i took it. I went and sat next to him and asked him if i could play with his phone(since i had never played with an iphone). He was a pretty shy guy so by the end of the night we had only hugged.. Lol over the course of the next week we had gotten together and began getting to know each other more..seeing if we could have a relationship... (because Jd is one who is bad to hold onto things.. like wanting to date me even after I had told him at least 3 times to his face that it wouldnt work out) finally after talking about it and seeing if having a relationship with each other would be worth maybe even losing a friendship with Jd...which we decided together it was.. And it was defiantely worth it. The first night kinda as a couple we went to a party together that alot of our friends were going to be there and just had a great time except for a few drama episodes from Jd... then afterwards went back to his dorm (Lol i know so funny because of the size of the bed(TWIN) Lol) and spent the night talking which led to cuddling which led to the longest make out session ever...five hours, which i found really refreshing that it didnt go any further.. and to have a guy who didnt try to take it any further that soon was just so great. and to add on to that, it was just so comfortable sitting next to him at the party and sleeping next to him almost felt natural..corny i know but it did. Waking up the next day was absolutely wonderful as well and ever since we've been side by side and he always stood up for me and for us as a couple even during those first few weeks...which i loved... The next month i went home with him to met his parents.. which was a bit nerve racking because he had never brought any of his college girlfriends home.. but I got to meet his wonderful parents and some of his family who are also alot of fun. But that same weekend we went skydiving together.. our first big couple activity... Sky Diving.. Lol it was the most amazing thing ive ever done and i honestly don't think i wouldve done it on my own, it was just something i had never thought of doing but i am so glad i did and that i got to go with Drew. Ok so fast forward to Thanksgiving. I got to go see some of my family for Thanksgiving. Then fast forward to the first weekend in December. It was a sunday and every sunday Drew's Dad's family tries to have dinner at his Grandmothers house.. so not only am i going to meet his Grandmother but also both his uncles and their childern as well.. so pretty much everyone on his Dad's side.. i was completely nervous. But they all ended up being SO sweet and his parents ended up telling Drew on the way back to school how much they liked me. Then Christmas came.. our first actual test of our relationship...not being able to see each other for almost an entire month after seeing each other at least once a day... he went back home for Christmas break and i stayed in my home town(where we both go to college) We spent a few days before Christmas with his family and then i went back home Christmas Eve. He was absolutely adorable when giving me my Christmas gift..i had already given mine to him but he kept saying it wasnt Christmas so he couldnt give me his present for me..right as i was almost asleep i felt something very cold around my wrist.. so i lifted it up to find a beautiful gold bracelet that had yellow, white and coral gold on it..he did such a good job at finding me jewelry(because i am VERY picky at what i wear).. Ok so fast forward two weeks past Christmas.. school is starting back and that is great because that means Drew is back where i can see him as much as i want..lol also we decided that he would move into my apartment with me. which he did.. and for the entire six months of him living with me were wonderful.. it was the greatest feeling to roll over in the morning and see him laying right next to me or waking up to the feel of him hugging me and kissing the back of my neck while saying good morning.. all the great memories i have of those six months i could write a ridiculous amount of blogs about but i will just hold those to myself.. ok fast forward 3 months we decided to take a different kind of spring break and go skiing in Utah instead of going the beach like every other college student...we had a blast.. it was just the two of us and flying together and doing everything together.. Lol it was great.. We'll go ahead and fast forward another month.. April.. we started talking about our future and when we would like to get married and engaged so on and so on.. :-) which we have very similar goals which work very well with each other for example... i want to be a dental hygienest which i have to go to my schooling in Oak Ridge..where i'm hoping there's also a very good school for Pyshcology majors.. which would work out really good... i would like to move into an apartment together somewhere between our schooling and Cookeville... Ok so then fast forward another month...two weeks before our finals for the semester my mom's best friend goes missing...she had left everything except for her cash and her credit card. she had actually just ran off...now granted she has depressive disorders that she had been taking medication for but stopped taking.. so we searched and searched for her for a full week, going to tons of hotels, calling rental car companies.. posted posters up every where.. until one morning exactly a week later on my mom's birthday we found her. She had decided to commit suicide by hanging herself in her own garage.. she had sneaken back to her own house in the middle of the night while her husband was sleeping.. This hit my family very hard.. this was a woman who had been in life for over 10 years.. had been at all my big birthdays, 10th, 13th, 16th, 18th, 20th and all the ones in between.. she was at all the big events in my life and she had just stole herself away from us. But luckily we all got through it slowly but surely and thank God i had Drew by my side the whole way through. He was there when i got the call from my dad, immeditatily after the visitation i went straight to him and he was there for me right after the funeral...While i was at both of those i just felt like i couldnt breathe...so i went straight to Drew afterwards and hugged him and just let out this huge sigh...i could finally breathe again... He has stood by me side by side throughout anything and everything ive been through for almost the past year.. He has seen my at worst and at my best and has loved me during both.. I am so grateful to have him... Fast forward another month.. school is over.. so that means he has to go home and back to his house. The transition from having him there everyday and sleeping in the same bed almost everynight to him being there once a week was hard... and still is.. i miss him alot during the time between each time i see him.. fast forward to present its 12:30 and i leave Florida in 2 1/2 hours to head back to Tennessee. So for the next 2 1/2 hours i will be cleaning and packing my stuff...then at 2am i will wake up my mom and wake up carla and head on home.. I will sleep hopefully the whole way home and then i will get home i may sleep some more.. I will then clean my apartment and try to get things organized to start packing (I'm moving). Then im going to try to figure out what to do for my dad for father's day lol then trying to figure out when i'm going to be able to see Drew before he goes to Chicago for a week...But i have deicded i really like this blog...i think i might just do it all the time.. :D