Today is over.. *sigh of relief*

Posted Saturday, June 27, 2009 11:04 PM

Well i got through the first day of my weekend job...now only if i could fast forward through the next 24 hours...lol Today was pretty good after about 11... i got to talk to Drew today more which helped... also after i ate this morning i stopped feeling sick to my stomache.. I wrote a blog at 6:45 this morning... and now about 16 hours later i am finally home.. and my bed feels amazing after working 16 hours.. I just have to keep telling myself that i only have to work just 16 more hours tomorrow then i can come home and get everything pretty much packed...then the next morning i get to sleep in..then around 12 to see Drew..and i cant wait.. it's like when he's here i can breathe deeper... Lol

i know it sounds crazy but after working those long hours coming home to him was the best... i would come home and meet him at the door...he'd give me a hug like he hadn't seen me in days...which just made me smile...then to add to it during those wonderful sunday night hugs i would be able to just breathe and would feel the entire day lifted off my shoulders...Its like he has a superpower and its giving great hugs... those sunday night hugs helped me completely relax and just be able to breathe... or...

When Donietta went missing then ended up killing herself...I got the call from my dad that my mom's best friend that had been missing for a week had been found...dead...because she decided to take her own life...while i was on the phone i held it in but as soon as Drew wrapped his arms around me i couldnt help but let it all out and cried for hours...then at her visitation i just couldnt breathe i felt like i was sufficating...but i drove straight to him and his hug helped me catch my breath... or her funeral i just couldnt stay there any longer so i left and went straight to him and held me and told me it would be ok and that it was ok to cry...

i swear he's amazing and he literally gives me the breath that i breathe sometimes... and I think about it.. only 10 more weekends and i will have my sunday night hugs back... lol very exciting...and its great to think of it this way... only 36 more hours and i can see Drew... Have a good night everyone...i'm going to bed....:-)