Glad its getting better....

Posted Wednesday, July 01, 2009 2:00 PM

Well yesterday we finally got everything done...Thank God Drew was there to help me move otherwise i dont think i could have got it done by myself... Yesterday morning before we started Drew got a voicemail saying that he had to come home that day because his dad was going out of town.. i tried really hard not to cry because i didnt want him to leave but i knew he had to so i didnt want him to feel bad.. well it didnt work and he noticed i was starting to cry then ended up feeling bad anyways... but then we both felt better and started moving everything.. then i had to go to a staff meeting at 1.. it only took 30 minutes but then by the time i got back Drew had got everything but the bed.. it was so great and he was such a huge help to me.. then we got most of everything done.. well we went out to get something to eat and went back to my apartment to just hang out..pretty much the only time that day were we were just able to sit with each other and that only last for about 30 minutes... he then had to leave to go back home... Well then when he got home i guess he was having alot of problems with his parents and was just all around having a bad night.. so i was talking to him on the computer and even then i could tell he wasn't really in the best mood and was just all around tired.. so then i got off of the computer to take a bath and then went to get ready for bed and get my clothes...so i tried calling him and he didnt answer so i figured he didnt really feel like talking or just didnt have his phone on him.. so i sent him a txt message telling him that i hope he had a better night and that i was sorry for him having a bad night...but didnt get any reply. Then when i was ready to go to bed i didnt want to bother him so i just sent him a txt message telling him goodnight.. and he sent one back saying "Thanks for not calling me" all of a sudden i felt terrible because i was trying not to bother him and not to make him more upset when in fact i had... i felt so bad i literally got sick... it sucked so bad i couldnt sleep and then today i got up not knowing what to do...and not feeling any better about it.. so i sent him a text saying good morning then called him...no response and i thought he was probably asleep then about an hour later i got online and he was there...so finally we talked it all out and instantly i felt so much better but at the same time i felt so bad i had just added to his frustration last night... and i would give anything to get away from here and go see him tonight but he doesnt want me driving out there for just tonight...we'll see what happens...