...And if you want love, we'll make it...

Posted Sunday, August 23, 2009 5:55 AM

Well i'm at work and its 5:50.. i had to be at work an hour ago and Thank you God this past hour has flown by and i'm hoping the next 14 fly by as well. For some reason i have a real peace about today.. i feel like its going to just go by so fast and i'll be home soon and be able to go home and sleep... speaking of which i havent been able to sleep hardly at all... I dont think i'm used to my apartment yet.. for the past two nights i've had horrifying dreams.. and both of them keep replaying in my mind.. and i've always heard that if you write dreams down then they'll go away or leave your thoughts... and i'm really hoping this works...

Thursday night's dream-

It starts out i'm in Hobby Lobby and i'm walking with a young boy, he's two and his name's Taylor and he's my son. Well not just my son but Drew and I's son.. I see this Christmas oranment and i absolutely love it.. so I call Drew for about 20 minutes i go on and on about how this would look so good on the Christmas Tree.. the only thing is.. no one is on the other line. Drew i guess had died or been killed.. so i was basically calling a phone number that wouldnt work.. Then i went home to our house we had bought together and i called out to him saying how he should come see the things i had bought at Hobby Lobby and i was talking and seeing him as if he was there.. then it's Christmas Day.. and his family comes over and his sister and his mom sit me down and try to convince me to let them take care of Taylor... then i wake up

Last night's dream-

I'm happy to say i cant remember all of it.. i know i'm at my parents house and its at night.. i go out on my front porch and i look up and see what looks like tons of shooting stars but i realize that theyre actually coming towards the earth.. we turn on the news and its all over the world.. people dieing all over because of it.. and I call Drew to see where he is and i can't get ahold of him so i leave the house to go look for him when i get into town were i thought he would be and i cant find him anywhere so i go into the mall in town to go inside because it looks like it was going to rain..when acutally it was those "shooting stars" again so i try to call him but my phone isnt working because of it.. then i finally get a call from him i wake up....

 They really need to stop because its hard to actually get rest. i dont think i've been so ready for a regular night of sleep in a long time.. i think part of the reason i couldnt really sleep last night was because it was the first night i had to sleep by myself and i didnt like it.. lol also i think i'm going to put boards in the bottom of my bed because when i sleep on my stomache its been killing my chest.. its like the beds too soft and when i sleep on my stomache i bend my chest lol o well.. right now i'm having a good day so far and i honestly feel alot better about those dreams now that i dont really have them right in my head.. and i'm hoping tonight i can sleep really good... then tomorrow morning i've got to get alot done. and Drew comes back next week!!! Then i'm having a small dinner party the 1st. :-) well Drew i hope you have a great day and i cant wait till i come up there... :-) I love you!