Wedding Binder!

Posted Saturday, October 24, 2009 2:44 PM

I am starting my wedding binder!! I am so excited! Kevin is a little leary of all of this just because right now he is jobless and thinking of paying for just one more thing with the money he doesn't have worries him. I understand all or this but I can't help but get excited. I just hope that my assurances to him that we will have plenty of time, it isn't HIM paying for it, it is US and all of those things ease that fear and worry. I know that he feels like he is letting me down and no matter how many times I tell him he isn't it won't take that bother away.

 When I talk to him about it I want him to think of the happy things, but I know that he wants to take care of me (all you liberal independent women out there reading this, I don't NEED him to, I know that he WANTS to though) and if he can't provide for us he will feel like he has failed. I have faith that he will have a job before next November and so will I, as it is December is going to add about 500-700 extra dollars to our wedding account, and if I get one of the jobs I am applying for on campus about 50 every month after that. 

I just wish that he could share more in my excitement of all of this. I know that he does, but because of the money issues he can't do it as freely as I can. I guess I have just never really had money to do whatever I want right then and there, so the fact that I don't now is nothing new to me. I am really good with money and have always managed to get a lot of the things I want and need just because I know how to save for it. Because of this I have no doubt that we will be able to have this wedding in November, and we will even have money left over. (I hope!)