Wedding Nightmares

Posted Thursday, March 20, 2008 4:10 AM

Throughout my entire engagement I have periodically had wedding nightmares.  All of the sudden this week I have had them nightly.  What's up with that?  I hate waking up stressed!  Sleep should be relaxing.  The days are stressful enough!

Anyway, my most recent wedding nightmare was last night.  I dreamt that it was wedding day (henceforth to be referred to as "W-Day"), and - since Fi and I are having a friend perform the ceremony and have written it ourselves - we had not finished writing the ceremony, nor had given it to our officients to practice, or to even have for W-Day.  I (in the midst of hair and makeup and "getting ready" pics) was trying to find the file and print, and somehow get to the officiants.

Another this week was regarding it being W-Day and needing to pay off all the vendors, but not having the $$.  Totall scary thought, because there is nothing I could do that day.

Yet another involved not having a florist (though I have one, and a fabulous one at that), and having to try and throw arrangements and bouquets together myself on W-Day with all the guests there, in my dress, and without hair and makeup (and running out of time to even do hair and makeup at all).

I think I even had a separate "bad hair" WR dream where I didn't have someone to do it, and it looked terrible, but I was running out of time and had to go anyway.

On one hand, I feel like my planning is very much on track and organized, but on the other, I wonder what these "not being prepared" and "not having money" dreams mean.  Maybe it comes down to having been planning for over a year, therefore the idea of a perfect, complete wedding being a life obsession, thus translating into my dreams as deep fears.

Anyway, I am just glad it is a long weekend so that I can have another productive WR weekend.  I hope that the more I stay ahead of the planning, the less I will have these dreams, and the less likely I will be to have a bridal freak-out.

Thanks for listening :).