We're Married! (Reflections frm the Bride)

Posted Monday, May 04, 2009 5:29 PM

Just Before I Took the Walk of My Life ...

With my arm in my adoring Father's, I was moments from walking down the isle.  This was the moment that I had been preparing for these past 11 months.  The sheer joy of it all was very powerful and I was now teetering on the edge of letting my emotions roll down my face.  The only time I absolutely did NOT want to cry.  See, I'm not a pretty crier who smile can beam through a single tear as it trickles down a flushed cheek.  No, no matter how happy I am, when I cry my forehead and chin crunch up, my eyes squint and puff, and my "smile" turns into something tight and strained.  This was NOT how I wanted my photographs to begin.  If I cried now, there wouldn't be one picture without those signature red, swollen eyes until the reception.  I wanted at least ONE pretty, tear free photo before then.

A few deep breaths and some mental distraction and I came back from the edge.  And so we walked down the isle to my beloved Groom, avoiding his gaze for as long a s possible (I hadn't stepped THAT far back from the edge ...). And to my delight, I felt everything in those amazing moments AND kept my composure for a little while longer.

How Did I Get Here??

At the reception I kept thinking "WOW! How did I get here?"  One day I'm telling myself not to get too attached to this unlikely guy and the next I'm getting married to him!  The middle part is such a beautiful blur - a colorful swirl of the best times I have had in my life.

How Do You Feel?

Woot! Everyone keeps asking me if I feel different.  Honestly - not much.  At least not yet.  I'm really happy.  But I was also really happy before the wedding!  Getting married hasn't changed any of that - it's been a celebration of what we already know and feel.  So it's just too soon to feel different.  In time marriage will define us and our relationship more and more.  So ask me again - but later.  For now, the biggest difference is that I now live with a boy!

Our Perfect (Imperfect) Wedding

As predicted, time ran out before we had accomplished every little thing we wanted to in prep for the wedding.  We didn't paint lilies on my rain boots, we ran out of printer ink with no time to replace it, etc.  And perhaps most significantly (as it turned out) we didn't print up directions for the vendors who were traveling with us through the day.  Ever since the wedding, I keep thinking of something I meant/wanted to do, but just ran out of time.  But that's okay!  The wedding was beautiful and we had such a wonderful time. All those little things would have been nice but what we had was pretty great!

- Bride